Mostly for Leah's Benefit

Okay, so I'm going to start blogging again, as I start this fairly scary part of my life...or at least I hope I start it. My newest prospective family failed to call me yesterday, which makes me nervous, and the stupid agency hasn't called me either! Slackers, all of ya!

I am getting really antsy here...tired of being in the dark about the next year and a half of my life. It feels like such a purgatory, a place of being where all I have the power to do is worry and stress. I am definitely not enjoying my downtime. It would be totally different if I had a job lined up. I could relax, take a trip to the beach for a few days. Write. Watch movies. Play with the dogs. Instead, all of my actions are transitory and my place here on shaky footing, libel to change at any moment. I never know what the next day has in store for me. No clue. This does not suit my personality, as we all know.

I just finished this really great book called The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Neffenegger (or something to that affect. The premise is...When Henry meets Clare, he is meeting her for the first time, but Clare has been meeting him since she was six years old. Henry is a time traveler who can move backwards and sometimes forward in his own history or the history of those he loves (ie...Clare). Clare is his wife in Henry's adult present, but in his adulthood, he visits the child version of his wife. Anyway, it's really mind boggling, well-written, and very emotional. I've got a list of about 12 books that I would like to read. I think I'll start with the Nanny Diaries, since everyone has been telling me I HAVE to read it before becoming a nanny in NYC.

I just want to be out of here. There is too much not being said.